My 2010 Happiness Project;

Monday, January 25, 2010

This is more reflective more than anything else..

So, it's been a while. I had pretty much given up on this whole Happiness Project thing because things have just been rather unpleasant lately and happiness was just eluding me. I just didn't want to keep trying to pursue happiness any longer when I felt like it wasn't going to happen. I guess I need this now more than ever. And really, when it comes down to it, it's not like me just to give up so easily. I don't know why I would start getting in the habit now.

Anyways, I had this realization not to give up today. My mood and the weather have been matching lately. A little too much. I tend to be more down in the winter but never like this. So today it was pouring allll day so I figured it was a good day to continue cleaning my room( I made a HUGE dent in it!). All of a sudden I noticed it stopped raining and then the sun came out!! I was ecstatic. I opened my windows and sat on the ledge of my window for a good 15-20 minutes while the sun was just shining and the temperature was almost 60 while listening to some of my favorite music. I needed it. I really did. I needed the sunshine and the warmth. I needed the breeze coming through the windows. Then, out of nowhere, it got really dark again and I decided to shut my windows. The next thing I knew..monsoon outside my window again!! I was bummed because I was enjoying the sun. However, I was so grateful for that little moment in my day that I could be alone and enjoy the few moments of sunshine that I needed. It gave me hope for some reason. In the midst of a really nasty, rainy day, there could be this little block of time where the sun was able to shine through and actually be quite beautiful. I cannot explain the logic behind why this gave me hope but it did. I felt like even though things have been rough lately, there would be little brief moments of happiness that I need to cling to right now and be grateful for. My happiness project just started and I can't expect to have this surge in happiness. My life just isn't like that right now. But I know that I can cling to these little moments of happiness and they will just have to keep me going for a little while until things get better.

So, onward. I don't like that I missed out on a lot of the first month of my happiness project so I'll have to just do both during February but not stress myself out about January too much.

“Posted 3:01 PM”
2 cheers & encouragement

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I thought that I should leave a cheer/encouragement. Maybe a cheer of encouragement? I myself have had a pretty rough year this past year, and I'm only just starting to get over it (hopefully), so I definitely sympathize. I don't think that I can give great advice, because different things work for different people, but cheers. It's a new year, new opportunities. New cuddly teddy bears? Maybe that's something you could use...

By Rebecca, at January 26, 2010 at 6:01 PM

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