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0 cheers & encouragement Saturday, January 30, 2010
Since my first month of the Happiness Project was a FAIL, I've been figuring out how I can restructure my plans to go full steam ahead in February! I'm lacking the motivation and the energy so I HAVE to do January's tasks. I think maybe doing January with February's task might work. I know you might be thinking it is quite a daunting task. However, the way I see it, is that all the things I hate to do (exercise, clean, etc.) are in January and it's hard for me to focus completely on all the things I hate to do all in one month. The balance of February being all about my relationship with the boy (something I definitely love and will be easy!) and January's hellish tasks will work out just fine.
0 cheers & encouragement Thursday, January 28, 2010
realized how much satisfaction a clean floor would bring me. The room is getting there! Slowly but surely. It makes me a whole lot happier when I walk into my room!
1 cheers & encouragement Monday, January 25, 2010
This is more reflective more than anything else..So, it's been a while. I had pretty much given up on this whole Happiness Project thing because things have just been rather unpleasant lately and happiness was just eluding me. I just didn't want to keep trying to pursue happiness any longer when I felt like it wasn't going to happen. I guess I need this now more than ever. And really, when it comes down to it, it's not like me just to give up so easily. I don't know why I would start getting in the habit now. Anyways, I had this realization not to give up today. My mood and the weather have been matching lately. A little too much. I tend to be more down in the winter but never like this. So today it was pouring allll day so I figured it was a good day to continue cleaning my room( I made a HUGE dent in it!). All of a sudden I noticed it stopped raining and then the sun came out!! I was ecstatic. I opened my windows and sat on the ledge of my window for a good 15-20 minutes while the sun was just shining and the temperature was almost 60 while listening to some of my favorite music. I needed it. I really did. I needed the sunshine and the warmth. I needed the breeze coming through the windows. Then, out of nowhere, it got really dark again and I decided to shut my windows. The next thing I knew..monsoon outside my window again!! I was bummed because I was enjoying the sun. However, I was so grateful for that little moment in my day that I could be alone and enjoy the few moments of sunshine that I needed. It gave me hope for some reason. In the midst of a really nasty, rainy day, there could be this little block of time where the sun was able to shine through and actually be quite beautiful. I cannot explain the logic behind why this gave me hope but it did. I felt like even though things have been rough lately, there would be little brief moments of happiness that I need to cling to right now and be grateful for. My happiness project just started and I can't expect to have this surge in happiness. My life just isn't like that right now. But I know that I can cling to these little moments of happiness and they will just have to keep me going for a little while until things get better. So, onward. I don't like that I missed out on a lot of the first month of my happiness project so I'll have to just do both during February but not stress myself out about January too much. 2 cheers & encouragement Thursday, January 7, 2010
Ok..so maybe I lied. Being able to see the floor again does make me happy. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I realized the huge mess on the floor was basically all clothes. I just started sorting them..things that were dirty, things that needed to be ironed, things to hang out, things to go in drawers. Then I just hung all those things up..which is a task I have been dreading for a while. I always feel like it is going to be so horrible to hang a huge pile of clothes but it barely took any time at all! It's nice to get rid of things too particularly things that I was hanging on to for a while..socks with no match or underwear that I haven't worn in a few years. I have practically a mini Victoria's Secret store in my drawer so I don't know why I didn't ever just throw away all those old ones!I've been doing really great with the nagging tasks resolution! I paid my credit card bill that I had been dreading to pay, paid my doctor's bill, returned the sweater I got my stepdad because it didn't fit, renewed my AAA membership, and went and got my eyes checked so I could get the new Burberry glasses I wanted! It feels good to do these things. They were not that much effort but I just kept pushing these things off. I mean really..how hard was it to go online and renew the membership? It took a whole 30 minutes to do everything with my eye doctor and my sister came with me and we made a lunch date and shopping date out of it. I'm feeling a little better. Not getting the job I wanted sort of made me snap a little. I have to remain calm and remember it takes time. 3 cheers & encouragement Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Dear Happiness Project,I am in a foul mood and I apologize in advance for my rant. You are doing nothing for me. I know that I haven't been completely faithful in all of my resolutions so far but you can't even budge an inch? Plant a little bit of happiness in my life? Even if it is only to make me feel like 2010 is going to be a complete waste of time like 2009. Yes, there were some good times but overall it was miserable. Please do not do this to me. I was inspired & now I'm just failing with most of these resolutions. Cleaning my room is not making me happy. Yes, I know it will in the end..but it is NOT now. Getting up the courage to go to the gym and then disappointing myself when I don't is no fun either. And trying to get 8 fucking hours of sleep is a joke when I can't even fall asleep because I'm so unhappy and I'm thinking about all the messed up things in my life. You and I have to make it work somehow, Happiness Project. This is a joke so far. 0 cheers & encouragement Sunday, January 3, 2010
I definitely failed yesterday in my attempt to tackle my closet. I was way too ambitious so I modified it to just going through my clothes and getting them into the different piles. I have such a hard time figuring out what to get rid of. I know obvious things that should go but there are some things that I just can't figure out. I could SEE myself possibly wearing something but I'm not sure. Today I'm going to be trying on alot of things to figure out if I can incorporate it into my wardrobe for 2010. I really wish I could hire a professional. lolI've also been working on tackling my "nagging task." I like writing lists by hand but I always end up losing them so I've been looking at options for online list making sites just to see if it would be something beneficial to me so I can keep track of these things. I'm liking Zenbe.com. It's pretty simple & you can add plenty of lists. It would be nice if I had an IPhone because you can update your lists via their application. I always think of things on the go. I used to use Remember the Milk and that was pretty useful when I was in school because it was extremely detailed and you could put deadlines and such. It's too complicated for what I need now. Ta Da lists are decent too. Although it's very simplistic. Are any of you list makers? Labels: closet, clutter, nagging tasks, to do lists 1 cheers & encouragement |
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Jamie. 24. Unemployed college grad.
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